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noone but me from URL @ 11:40 PM " Go Sarah!"  heeeeee :DWell as ya'll can see, it seems like my jogging style is still the partial-kangaroo one hahaha. But at least its partial now! Haha well its my style okay, dont be jealous & just shaadaaap! :) Well, uhm, x-country was horrible. My only consolation is that at least i endured the whole way through. Not pleased with my position nor what happened. Thanks to adlin suzy & sus for being there through my grosshitt time though. :) (Adlin says she thinks we look like chickens in this picture, hahahah! She looks retarded and i look autistic, but i like it cos its so bright and gay! & the yellow too, im starting to like yellowwww.) Caught "He's just not that into you" with suzy adlin & kristiano, then headed for ics debates with makkals ++vj indians. It was awesome seeing nish speak in front of everyone, aiseymann! Goodjob nish, proud of you! :) & congrats vj! Oh, my chat with sus was so exciting! HAHA. Welll, headed to jkayu with roopi for supper after that :D Got home and thought i'd knock out but i had such a horribly fragmented sleep with 3 distinct nightmares :/ & mugged at Marina today with nurin rup and adlin. & again tomorrow. & again for the rest of my life. Whooptidooo! --- Okay my tipood's charged now, off to bed. Hope ya'll have been having a good life world! &&& oh! I think its damn cool that so many people around Singapore saw rainbows on Weds :) &hello friend, i know exactly what you're going through. it gets tough, but we'll hold up okay? not worth ittttttt. it takes a thought to make a word and it takes some words to make an action. 2/25/2009 noone but me from URL @ 8:09 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARNANTA! :D (25/2)  Arnantaaaa! You're 18! Homgzz, you're not even as tall as a 16 yr old la!! Hahaha! Kiddingzzz! Anw you're awfully far away and its been an awfully long time since we've last talked but i hope that you're doing fine in USA. Hurry come home and meet us all soon please! (& today i met mrs loy and she wants me to tell you that she's very angry with you for not sending her chinese new year greetings HAHAHHA.) You silly girl! You used to make me laugh like hell back in those days. I really do miss you mannzz. Takecare teddybearrr! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARLIYANAAAA! :D  (26/2)Marlyyyy! 181818!! Homgzzzz. & We've been damn good friends since we were like what, 13?! Hahaha, those kental days. Anw, you know, i can safely say that you're one of the rare few who's been my good friends through the 5+ years. Classmates for 4 years and schoolmates for another 2! :) Rmbr all our damn slow strolls to and after school? We used to talk about everyth and anyth under the sun. Gosh how i miss those days. & i might not show it, but you have no idea how happy i am whenever i see you around school. It makes me feel safe. I lovelovelove hugging you and i lovelovelove you! Happy birthday dear! :) ---- 1) Congrats Delta 09! Ya'll are an awesome bunch & I know that ya'll will lead Cedar NCC to greater heights :) 2) Roopi, i enjoyed sat & sun thoroughly with you. (&yr mom!) 3) Enjoyed thaipan studying day too you twoooo! 4) && ohh our tues fellowship pigging-out day ahaha. 5) Conversation i had today reallyreally broke my heart & i still feel awfully upset ): So fragile you know, everything is so fragile. 6) Wellll, Kinder Bueno makes me really happy! 7) I have an history essay to do that is technically due tmr since i'm not going to school on Friday. 8) Syimah i reallyreallyreallly hope you can make it for TF on friday. Plsplspls! ): 9) This is a bloodybitchy world. 10) I miss you :/ --- I am stuck in a standstill in almost every aspect of my life and I hate it. Little joys keep me going so thank you to all of you who manage to put that smile on my face :) He smiles politely back at you You stare politely right on through 2/20/2009 noone but me from URL @ 10:25 PM Ending -Gavin Ewart The love we thought would never stop now cools like a congealing chip. The kisses that were hot as curry are bird-pecks taken in a hurry. The hands that held electric charges now lie inert as four moored barges. The feet that ran to meet a date are running slow and running late. The eyes that shone and seldom shut are victims of a power cut. The parts that then transmitted joy are now reserved and cold and coy. Romance, expected once to stay, has left a note saying GONE AWAY. --- What do you fear most? I don't know if most, but Abby i share your fear. (& here i shall promote her lj cos she writes extremely well: famouslasttears.lj) Also, i fear that if i were to ever get married, my marriage would die off into something like that in the poem above. Perhaps romance and such matter to me now, but wouldn't when i'm into my 30th year of marriage or sth; nevertheless isn't it a rather upsetting thought to entertain that you're gna reach a point in your life when you're plagued with the many worries of the world that childhood girly fantasies of romance don't matter anymore? I think it's an extremely horrible thought and i think growing up is gross. If i still had my way, i would rewind and press pause sometime in 2007; but yeah well, SUMO. --- Today was a lovely day. Adlin and i laughed so damn hard at nothing during econs lecture and i was trying so damn hard not to squeal that i started crying and couldn't read my notes. Hahahha. & Ralph kept bluetooth-ing the lecturer stuffs from diff names which was hilarious too haha. & i also enjoy hanging around at the stone tables catching up with suzy & kiron. kiron's my new bully suzy partner and hahaha i love it! ;D hehh. && also cos i met makkalz & kettleen :) Thanks for dropping by kettleen, drop by every friday k please? :) Missed you nish & missed the ics debates too. Bukit Timah is such a weird place haaaaha. Anw, the weather's being a bitch; it's so unbelievably hot! Seriously, i can feel the heat immediately after stepping out of the LTs. & Im not bionic woman but i can see heatwaves too! Psycho, seriously. I'd rather the world end with ice age then we all burn to death. Yes, today was a nice day hope you enjoyed your friday too :} & ohhh, the way you make me smile on the inside :) never thought not having you here now would hurt so much 2/17/2009 noone but me from URL @ 8:49 PM Heaven in a cup, goes along the lines of peanut butter icecream with kinder bueno & oreo mix-ins! :D Seriously, ice cream chefs is one of the best places on Earth. & off late, I've been having a sudden fetish for kinder bueno and oreo. I liiiiiike! Anyway, today i had my moment of heeeeeeeeee when i realised something! Ahahaha. I have a crush on my 37 year old married teacher, heheheheeeeeeeee. He's reallllly damn hot la hoomgzzzzzz!! Caitlin & I are the only one with proper eyes, seriously. Nicenice man, deeeeep sexy voice, charming smileeeee, goooood complexion, cooool spiky hair, a little tummy & a tight ass AAAAHAHAHAHAHAH. Okay i think i'm a bit psycho now. *Sings adlin's psycho girlll, psycho girl out of tune* OH & BLOODY HELLL! Friends on star world has ended & so has Grey's anatomy. ): ): ): &my moment of rant, spare yourself lest you think its for you: I want to scream and tell the whole world what a bitch you & you are. But i won't, because i'm not that small. & come on la, i can see right through you, do you think i'm stupid or something? im damn irritated with you, seriously. who am i mann, who am i. i've had enough. Never everever dreamt of the day i'd say this, but i'm saying it. Enough. Poothum. If i dont mean that much, you shan't. K there, all you insecure people can go think its you for all i care. & i dont understand why people keep saying baLUku, its baLAku la alamaaaaaaaak. shit HAHAHAH both sound damn funny now. balakuuuuuuuuu!!!! LA LA LA LA KU. No i dont know bala hahaha. I really think im going psycho. I like this smiley :} bye! over and over again 2/16/2009 noone but me from URL @ 9:56 PM Say cheeeeze! Random Nonsense of the day (16/2/09- Feeza)  Happy Birthday Mini Nathan! :D (14/2/09)       Vday at Cedar Fiesta! :D (14/2/09)     Happy Birthday again Zarifah! :D (07/2/09)     Happy Birthday Zarifah! :D (06/2/09)  08A11 Class Picnic! :D (06/2/09)     --- Pictures not there are those taken with 4i lovelies on vday as well as nish's bday. Soon soon. I was supposed to be doing my lit essay haaahaaahaaaaa! Anyway mom's back, she looked so happy i didn't have the heart to shout at her. Pleasant week ahead ya'll! :D everyday i love you less and less. 2/13/2009 noone but me from URL @ 11:55 PM Stars are holding you, holding you, holding you tonight. Have been spending the noons of the past few days sitting around the stone tables chatting millionzz of hourzz away. Mostly with kiron & suzy & somedays the juniorclass. One thing that sucks BIG TIME about school is that although adlin is my cmate, our timetables clash like shitt so i don't get to talk to her much this year :/ plus, while im the damn free loser, she's cicak-ing away. howellzzz ): sucks adlin, see this- It sucks. I miss our coy/coi pond and treehouse days veryverymuchhh. Anyhows, back to the story, I always wna do work, but i think i really love talking/listening to people talk more haha. I realise i can't do work anymore with the J1s around, canteen's too crowded as are the stone tables. Homgzz, i actually make suzy dash out of the lecture theatres into the canteen so that i can buy my favourite golden thing before the queues get insane. My cheap thrills now stand at walking into the canteen to look at food cos it makes me happy hahahehehoho. Anyway, tonight was absolutely lovelyyyy, rupini im damn glad i went. 7 course western meal at roopi's place! I got full just looking at the food, shiokkkk. I wanted to take pictures of each course, but of course not right. Thanks for having me over roopi! (i want to call you that!) & im excited for tmr! most important would be meeting delta dearests & my lovelies and well just being back in that atmosphere. the notsoright place with the right people. Oh vday at vj was, uhmmm, well people kept giving me stuffs & i had nothing to give back oops. I liked it that they were playing lovelylovely songs so that i could sing along all day. & its kiron's bday tmr & he's invited us on his yacht! cool or what! what did you say? cool? yes, correct! ten points for you! heh. kiron is mininathan btw, aka president's grandson! Ohoh Sayers said sth today which i thought made a lot of sense. i'll share it with ya'll another day, soon. I shall dedicate a post to it. Wellll, long story cut short (ahaha after the long story), as you can see i am feeling pretttyyy happy now. I don't know why. I'm perfectly fine with everything and everyone (except the freakin cheena taxi driver dammit, frm vj to city hall 14bucks?! wth) so i think im reaching nirvana. Honestly. Maybe its just the sugar rush from the shiok dinner+the 10000 chocolates i had. Oh, but come to think of it, i think im moodswinging ahahaha. Cos i was grahbrahh just now and skyhigh now. Tottm otwwwww, great. & i realise that i'm more than able to cut out social life from my life. I abstained from going online or going out for a whole week ya'll! Me, the social-addict. Been spending a lot more time with the bro esp since recent events have bonded us ahaaaa. Roopi says about time, fine. I want to say sth but i shan't cos its mean. I know for myself & thats enough i think? Okay, wow! what a long and happy ramble. Reminds me of barney i don't know why. Alright then, my clothes should have been washed, im gna hang them and get on to bed. My mom's not back yet. If its this break she's taking i hope its a damn bloody good one. Sarah says she's gna have a whole lottta shit to deal with when she gets back. After all im 17 and i deserve to be an angsty teenager every once in awhile. & okay im gna stop before i spoil my beeootifool happy post. Nirvana baby, it feels damn good. I realise that manymany freaky weirdos read my blog. So popurarrr horzzzz. Next post shall contain pictures k. From last week to this week. Adios samigozz, 1) HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! 2) HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINI NATHAN! :D 2/11/2009 noone but me from URL @ 6:46 PM Maybe we're trying, trying too hard Just this week, sometimes i feel so alone, i feel cold. It's a cold that makes my insides shiver and causes goosebumps to erupt. I can actually physically feel the cold starting in my chest and slowly spreading; and it all stems from suddenly realising that I'm in this all alone. The cold lasts for only about 10 seconds, but the impact of the after effects isn't something I'm easily able to forget. I don't wonder why i feel cold, i just wonder when i'll feel warm again.  Because these two make school bearable. Thank you suzy for cooking healthy delicious food for me, just cos i dont have :) & thank you adlin for always trying to help me solve everyth :) Thank you nish for always being there though you're never physically there :) & thank you rupini for always trying to make me see sense even when i don't want to :). I think now i'm more than ready to thank anyone who can even make me smile. People around school especially, 4i lovelies, fel & even psychogirls haha. I've mentioned haven't i? I live for simple joys and the cheap thrill in laughing like hell, taking multishots in an econz lecture is enough to get me by. I miss my mother but i'm so mad at her. I think i kid the world, but it feels like shit when i know that i'm not kidding myself. i miss you & you. We go on cos there's no turning back 2/08/2009 noone but me from URL @ 8:22 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY NISHUKUSUUUUU! :D  You're eighteen mannz! nish! eighteeeeen laa! like you said, you can drink and smoke & soon we'll all go clubbing tog at you know where hahaha. Anyway, happyhappy birthdayyy! :) I dont think much has changed between last year & now and for that im very much greatful. You're still very much the awesome friend that i have, always there and always the one who knows exactly what to say to make me feel better. Makes you my one in a million nishukusu! :) I may annoy you (okay i know i do heh) and make you wna strangle me, but know that i'll be there for you till the end. I love you very very much my bully! ---- Just this night, i think everyone/thing's out to get me annoyed. Grahhh, homgzzz. The 2nd Latest: Blooody big flying cockroach zooomed into my room & almost landed on my chicken sambal. DAMMIT, THINK WHAT! I grabbed my plate and ran out screaming. STUPIDSHITHEAD. My chicken sambal dammit. The Latest: Flying yellow colour beetle. Nicely come and land on my laptop with the bzzzz sound. Homggg, my room's like nature park. Eitherways, it reeks of baygon so im sleeping in the hall tonight. This plus so many other things annoyed me tonight, grahhh. I shall update about yesterday & today another day. But on the whole they were lovelylovely days with lovelylovely people! :) ONIM! Whole week ahead, endure peoplezzz! Say you're sorry, that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to 2/06/2009 noone but me from URL @ 5:53 PM HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZARIFAH! :D  Happy happy happy twenty-first you! Anw, its the second time, seconddddd(!) & i'm damn glad that we've lasted. You've been there for me through thick and thin, always getting me through, and for that one million thank you's would never do. Hope that you had a lovely day & that this year sees much happiness & success for you! :) & psssst! Naan unnai kaadhalikkiraen! (Seeeee! i didn't call you old, put an unglam picture nor call you makneknek! :) ----- THREE CHEERS FOR FIVE YEARS,   (Cake deliberately says sixth cos we are forward looking people. Right delta? Rightright. Anw that was a damn shiokadok peanut butter & chocolate cake with cheesy icing & all. Shiok to the max, dont jealous!:) Spent 31st with my delta dearests and as always it was simply lovely :) We managed to catch up and homg i think i laughed more than the entire week put together. (No school isn't that boring, delta's just that awesome!)    LOOK AT KATHLEEN KONG. YOU LOOK AT HER, LOOK AT WHERE SHE'S LOOKING! Hahaha she's gna kill me.  Taboo was the funniest shit. Yara, "When you fu*k someone, what do you get?", Kathleen, "MONEY!". HAHAHAHA. I dunno what SA's teaching that girl. Hello all you sick people, you get pregnant la please.  All i was living with were memories of what we used to be and all i needed was just that day, that amount of time with those people to make it all come alive again. & that feeing, well its sth words wouldn't do justice. Anyhows, missed all of you who couldn't make it esp you sunm!! You gave me a fake number, cannot calllll! ): but anw julyjuly, hurry back k!! Oh & as usual we made our yearly call to staff merdin haha and we ask the same question every year. "Staff do you know who we are?", "Yaaaaaa, my part Aaaaaaaaaas!!" Hahaha. :) Next up, vday with dearests & lovelies :)  &&& 31st! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANISZA! :D  Hello you uncoool umbrella girl! You even more uncool now cos you're twenttyyyyyy! hahaha, kidding kidding! You know sometimes i look at you and i think, 'you were my sgtttttt!' heh. Happy bebebelated birthday, hope you enjoyed your day and hope that this year will be filled with much love (;P) for you! :) ----- &I was just telling Ryan last friday that i'm gna practice self-discipline and stay in school to study when these makkalzz below called for ppmacsfriday! Dammit, how to say no to ppmacsfriday right!! The thought of that & seeing those faces again after so long kinda sealed the deal :) Good ole' new times. But narmo was missinggggg! Soon k narmo! But well, it was finally a reason to go TGIF all over again.  and like bonus addition, zarifah syimah & mard came by too & then later met the restrest. Walked to cedar & well the structure of the school is damn bloody ugly. Pfft. After that we went to the exhumed cemetry behind cedar & not scareddd! :D The sky was realllly pretty. Haha took photos with Mard's professional camera! yeap, it was a lovely friday & saturday :) ----- If you've read all the way till here, aiseymann you're damn free and you should be studying! Buttt, thank you cos you care :) I shall update about today tomrrow cos i don't have pictures yet, but by far today was the best day of feb :D (zarifah! must be yr bday magiccc!) & i don't know why but i realllly don't like february? It's like bad things always happen to me in feb. ALWAYS know, goodness. But, nish's & marly's bdays are coming up, plus vday at cedar! :) Reason enough to keep smiling baby. Okay, Friends on now! :D Even more reason to smile. Takecare ya'll! But in all honesty, im not doing too great :/ Took an oath, I'ma stick it out till the end 2/03/2009 noone but me from URL @ 3:19 PM [Im an insomniac again and i hate it. Last night i finally fell asleep at 5sth only to be awakened shortly after by a horrible dream. I was really quite freaked out because as incredulous as the dream seemed, it felt soso horribly real. I wonder why. Anw, my head started throbbing & i hadn't slept at all, so i couldn't go to school. Note: couldn't, not didn't so no i didn't pon. So yes i'm at home. But i'm going out later to study with roopiboopi :) I hope i fall asleep tonight. Nope, this isn't a proper post, im waiting for more pictures before i update. Thank you very nice, goodday goodbye] Reply tags: syimaholmez: hahaha i am your friend la plz. & yeah cny wont share, but hari raya you'll share with me right? :D nurin: eh i already eat a LOOOT of fruits and vegetables okay!! & i haven't eaten a ramly burger ever since then! you go turn vegetarian la you! save the animals.zaz: haha thank you, you're my supportive-eating friend mannz! anw yeah you & my mom can *headbang* on facebook. && just cos i nag at you doesn't mean im older okay!! anyhow only! it just means that i care for you okay you louyapok. & BASKERIFAHHH! not happy la dammit! hahahah. adlin: you shuddup okay, i wont. i will be an extremely motivational motivational speaker. shanis: eh you think you older now can action ah ma'am! i nag at you cos i careeeeee. another louyapok, pfffft. nish: haha yesyes! anw your bday comingggggg! :D sunm: hahaha i know! just like me right! :) anw sunm you gave me fake number!! hurry give me yr real number!
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